Job Paralysis
Well I’ve spent the past week wanting to apply for jobs but failing miserably. There have been two jobs in the past couple of weeks that I should have really applied for, but when it came down to it my heart wasn’t in it. I even spent most of this evening frantically typing away, but when I really read the job description, not just the bits I liked the sound of, the job didn’t really sound any better than the job I’ve already got. They want the world. That’s not a problem, I can give them the world. But they always want your soul too, and I ain’t givin’ that up!
Along with all that studying - why am I making life hard for myself? I should be enjoying my evenings doing things that give me pleasure - not worrying about the next rung on the ladder. Society seems to insist I should be ambitious - but is that for my benefit or someone else’s? I’m a fool - I should be making hay while the sun is shining. I should leave the rest for a rainy day.
What’s bothering me though is that I don’t know why I’m suffering from job paralysis - is it just laziness or a lack of confidence, or is it that I’m really meant to stay exactly where I am for now? I wish I knew.